Rememberance

There are a lot of songs I feel that represent me and that I would like to be remembered by. Narrowing this down to sixteen was tough, but hey, funerals/wakes probably take enough time to warrant their own full motion-picture length score.
“Antennas to Heaven” by Godspeed You! Black Emperor is a twenty minute, seven movement instrumental post-rock piece that builds and builds to incredible, heavy crescendos, then slowly fading away. To me, the song inspires hope of a better future, and I'd like it played because I hope that it would give those present the strength to move on.
“Sometimes” by My Bloody Valentine is a lush and sensual song – I would want this dedicated to a friend of mine who I used to be closer with. It incites in me a feeling of a gray, rainy day, my favorite weather. I thrive best when the weather is wet and cold, and rather than a gloomy setting I would hope to evoke the feeling of a cold winter night spent indoors, reading – a personal favorite pastime.
“All My Friends” by LCD Soundsystem is about caring for your friends, and to them it would be dedicated. I would want them to know that even if I didn't spend enough time with them, they were always on my mind.
“Your Ex-Lover is Dead” by Stars is about going through hard times and becoming stronger through them, and I feel that that is representative of both my own nature and that of life itself.
“Motorcycle Drive By” by Third Eye Blind would be dedicated to Christina. It's about being alone and alright, and serves as contrast to the earlier LCD Soundsystem song. It's how I feel often – not abandoned, but just alone, and it's calming and it makes everything okay.
“Boots of Spanish Leather” is my favorite Bob Dylan song. It talks about the narrator's love sailing away, and ends in somewhat mixed feelings. The song is hopelessly romantic, which is clearly my nature, but it also evokes that sense of moving away from that which I could have been comfortable with and towards new beginnings.
“Shooting Rockets” and “Painter in your Pocket” by Destroyer are two songs with extremely ambiguous meanings. The harsh sounds of the former would compliment my own mania, where the lilting and sweet Baroque-esque sounds of the latter would serve to represent the calmness within life. They showcase unique feelings from within me that I don't quite have words for.
“Needle in the Hay” by Elliott Smith is a song about fucking up and still ending up okay. Speaks for itself, really. I would dedicate this song to my mother, because I would want her to know that even though everything wasn't perfect I still made it through.
“Darkmatter” by Andrew Bird is about discovering yourself. I hope by the time I die I figure it out, otherwise, it's more of a tribute to my efforts. This song would be dedicated to my friend Mitch, who introduced both it and the concept to me.
“Jump in the Pool” by Friendly Fires is a pivotal song in my life. It tells you to stop worrying, to be free, to act on your own will without regards towards consequences and actually enjoying yourself. It's how I've always wanted to live, and how I always advocate living. It's that feeling that, deep in my heart, I will always be free. I would want to be remembered this way.
“Sad American” by Kaki King is sort of a soft spot in my heart, where even though I live free I know I've been wounded and that everything is imperfect. Wisdom.
“Misread” by Kings of Convenience is about getting lost, in both a literal and metaphorical sense – and it's not always a bad thing. I hope that this song would capture my feeling of being lost without necessarily needing to be found, whether it be in life, my emotions, or even where I am. Tell everyone that it's okay.
“Salty Water” by Lightspeed Champion is about drowning in life. I'm not perfect and I would hope that this song would reflect it.
“Pyramid Song” by Radiohead - “There was nothing to fear, nothing to doubt.” That line about sums it up.
“Family Tree” by TV on the Radio – I'm not really clear on what this song is talking about, but the feeling that it evokes is very passionate and warm, and I would hope that everyone could be okay even though something is always lost, even if nothing is gained.
I would wish the ceremony to close on “Champagne Supernova” - the sweet end of life, that death is not something horrible but that everything is not only to be accepted but savored. Living to live. I would want everyone to remember that I wasn't simply living, that I was alive.
I would hope that after it was all over, they'd scatter my ashes over the ocean.